god have mercy ♥

last few days when i'm online, my lappy almost fall down. Glad, i catch it just in time. My feeling at that time only god knows >.< My sister thought, my lappy already fall. But my answer was totally nope.The case is when i wanna go to my bedroom, then my legs rolled at wire because too many wire at my legs. That's why this case happen x)

school life

Having my school holiday this month was not really good because i'm doing nothing at home. So, for now i'm start to counting day when school will start. Next week's my last holiday and it's a busy week. I have to settle all kinds of thing. Going to The Mines to buy bag, shoes etc. I have to buy MP3 also. Yeahh it's a bullshit, aye? >.< Before school holiday ended, let's do something ridiculous ! Next year's not year to play. But it's a study year for penilaian menengah rendah. Hope it's not so difficult. Because my teacher say, PMR this year it's not difficult to do. Everyone start to afraid of it. Nevermind x)

Latest news

These story a bit funny. The case is when my place building tent. Here the conversation

Me : Mom, why they'd trying to building tent?

Mom : Urm, i don't even know that

Me : They want to celebrate christmas ke?

Mom : HAHA no lah. I don't think so. Because majority population here is muslim. Gila ke kau. HAHAHA

Me : Dad, did you know what will happen tomorrow?

Dad : I don't know. I'm also wondering here

Me : Celebrate christmas kot. HAHA how could them ! xD xD

I look at my phone, i got phone call from my friend

Maz : Hey, can you join us to go to pasar malam?

Me : Err okay. What time?

Maz : 8.30 okay?

Me : okay

I'm going to bathe, and get ready to go while i take order from both of alien xp

Maz : Hey, i'm waiting for you in front of burger shop. Let's go

Me : Okay, okay. Wait. Nak turun la ni x)

Maz : You've been take result?

Me : Nope. I don't want to take it. Let it be SUPRISE !

Maz : Sengal. HAHA

Me : Maz, did you know what will happen tomorrow? i wondering, whey they build the tents

Maz : Tomorrow have a game for teenagers la

Me : Haaa? I thought, they want to celebrate christmas

Maz : HAHAHAHA kepala kau lah.

Me : Hey ya la. They build the tents now while tomorrow all christians will celebrate christmas. So, we thought of that situation. Actually, we think of that jugak. How could them wanna celebrate kan xp

Maz : HAHA stupid dohh. no lah

Me : I wondering again now, why tent tu like kandang gusti?

Maz : Ye kan. I don't know lah. Better you ask kat uncle tu. He will give you the right answer

Me : I don't want. Kau ah

The end of these story. By the way, marry christmas to all christian and happy holiday !

tension

Few days ago, i had my annoying day. I feel like dying. Only god knows what i feel. But i'm glad a bit because someone really care me and she trying to coax. Sorry to say, her help not helping me even 1%. I lost my confident, i lost my happiness. The only feeling i know is tension. Just fuck everything up ! For 2days, i can't sleep. My eyes swollen and it's really like a panda. When i awake, my eyes's still swollen because i can't stop to cry. While i sleep also these situation happen. People start to ask me what happen with my eyes. Omgosh >.< when i'm tired to think of these situation, god bring my happiness back. I'm tired to fake a smile and laugh before. Things happen for a reason. i'd really believe it

Random : ♥

12/11/2009 : i know, being beautiful doesn't have to be a complicated and mysterious process x)

17/11/2009 : dangg! I love final examination last week. and i love what i've got. i mean, my result. But , i'm not satisfied with my mate mark. every examination i failed it. grr i feel like i cant succeed in mate subject *hopeless* i know, even though i'm so exhausted to study it more, ICANTGIVEUP. Just need more extra class, need more focused on subject and prayer. Don't foul-mouther again neynie. I'll regret if not observe it x)

11/12/2009 : It's difficult to find friend that willing to through together in good or bad situation. I'm really admit it. I have many friend but i cant find friend that really good and can share story with each other x(

13/12/2009 : After back from wedding caremony today, i got so many sick. I don't know why. Headache, stomachache, cough, fever etc. I'm also woryy about my skin problem now. Every month i have to and fro from home to Bangsar, KL. Doing more check up and take medicine non-stop ! I'm so exhausted. Hope this's not not so serious and i'll getting well sooner. oh god, please keep me away from skin cancer and anything that cause die. ameen

farewell,

For now, i can't blog-ing, myspace-ing often. Im entirely and occasionally online. Farewell readers, x)

i've no story :D

hey,what's up to all readers? Seriously i dont know what should i write. Anyway now i really envy with college mate. I know, sooner or later i'll be there. I can't wait to enter. To have many friends several race, the same race and around the world (if i goin to international college) LOL. I hate school. I could turns like a ZOMBIE if i see too many assigment in front of me. Too many homework to do. I seriously hate it. What can i do, aye? I have to finished school if i really want to continue my future study. suck babe suck :D Today is HARI RAYA AIDILADHA. I'm really free , to wish all of you SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA. Now is 17:43. Cow, goat and whatever now already die. AIDILADHA this year, i cant eat goat's meat. In case, my place this year, does not buy any cow or got =_________=

hardest

Bored day and its really interesting to write here. Hehe. Anyway, I don’t have many story for today. This November, I’ll be free. But I don’t know how about next month. This December, my schedule will be packed because I have to attend the tution class and I really hate it. I really low in mathematic and science subject. That’s why I have to study it more. Next year, I have to face the hardest examination which is PMR. Omgosh ! I really really hate the hardest. I mean like, UPSR, PMR and the next is SPM. Im pretty sure, everyone also don’t like it. Its really hard aye? Well I know this is my challenge. And I have many challenger outside. And because of that, I have to succeed ! even though I know its really hard to do, but if i'll try my best. That’s not imposibble to get straight A. Try yeah try. And for all PMR candidates next year, do your best. 8A in your hand. YEAH! x)

hangout

Its seriously delicious x)

EAT YOUR HEART OUT! xD

Yah I miss to write here. LOL x)

Today, I and my mom went to The Mines Wonderland without any early planning. Honestly, I planning to go yesterday. But after i wake up from sleep, I feel so lazy and I decided to go to the next morning. Mommy start to touching and said ‘ I don’t want to go tomorrow. Just go alone. I’m lazy and I just planning to go today. Fullstop! ‘ haha. And I said ‘ its okay’ just cancelled the plan. I can go end of this month with sister. And the next morning, mommy startle me and said ‘ lets go today’ and my eyes’s like this -_- er? Haha. 5min after that, I wake up with the bigger eyes and said ‘ lets go’ I really want to go there because I want to buy my favourite ice cream. The name is Cornetto Sundae ( Chocolate Flavour) its really delicious. You should try it. LOL. At 11am I iron my clothe and going take a bath. After that, im ready to go with my spirit. Haha. We walk in cold weather to go to the bus stop. Waiting for Bus Mini to come in 10min. In Bus Mini, I find my phone, take the handfree and hear some music. Mommy start to babbling. But I don’t hear it. Handfree in ear. How to hear? pity mommmy. Really sorry for that. The same situation also happen when we reach to The Mines. Haha. So much so sorry. Our first location is going to Giant Hypermarket to buy all kind of things. Second location is going to the mcD and buy my fav ice cream that name cornetto sundae. Yummmyyy xD third location is going to foodcourt. Buy Chicken rice. Seriously, I nausea. When I going there, sure I have to buy chicken rice. Eeewww. Lastly, we going to the bus stop again, waiting for Bus Mini and back home

End the story for today x)

black and white

LOVE THIS SO MUCHIE ! xx

im still able to smile

I’m still trying to forgive you. What I’ve been through is really hard to forget,love. Now you had your bad day. That’s how im having it before. And you clap for it and your friends. you don’t know how I feel at that time and now you feel it. I can smile now I can laugh. Don’t you ask for forgiveness. Because my answer is NO! im not thinking it off. When I ask you to give me forgiveness, how can you say 'No'? you said I’m prostitute. what the hell are you talking about. Im never expect it. Who’s tell you about this? Let me knowww noww. BLERH I blame your friends. That’s all about him. You leave me and you ruins. Why don’t you tell this news in front of me? Are you scared? Throw away your feeling. Just tell me. Maybe I’ll explain. I know, this’s old story. I don’t have to raking up that old story it. But my heart was still hurt. Only god knows how. Now im able to smile because your heart break. Because of her attitude. When I make a wrong things before this, you post bulletin and status and talk obscenely. But I don’t give a fuck. I cant do anything than silence here. But now, god reply it back. You got the reciprocation. Now I really really glad to see your face. Your bulettin's seriously interesting to read. If your actually reading this which i think your not but well i dont care, atleast im not describing you as a creature and well like you said its my blog and i can blog about anything babe. Enough here. I really dont want to find any problem with you. live your life, LOVE x)

Lets clap your hand, and say YEAH :D

lurrvvee

Thanks so much, love! you give me power that i never had before. i love your nose by the way. thanks for taking picture like this for me. you give me strange. you make me smile. you make my heart fully with happy and love. you've kill my loneliness. i really lurrrvvvee you. yes i do. HAHAHAHA

latest

are you still remember about my entry about P1max? dont trust it again. i already cut my W1max line like w1max song. 'potong!potong!potong!' yes i do. i already cut it. HAHA. seriously slow like tortoise. full signal but hard to click any web. always blank page and my mind also blank. its really kill me. i cant wait to meetin with my streamyx this week x)

im dying

I don’t know what I have to say. For sure, I din expect that before. Why must this situation happen to me? Why? I need an answer. God,please give me the right answer. I just want my 'old' family. I don’t like this new family. Sometime,I feel stupid. I do appreciate you before. I tell anyone, you’re really good. Very very good person. But at last, I got this! Changing all your appearance, attitude because of love. You make me disappointed. How sad me god. You are the only one who know how my heart break. You break my heart. You make my heart broken. If I have strange, ill be outspoken. But I don’t have it. God, I hope this feeling will go away. I don’t know how to face it again. Today was my very very bad day. For this few days, my tears cant stop to falling down. Only god knows what my feeling inside. I cry because I angry. That’s not about sadly story. I don’t know what I have to do. And cry is the right way. I still thinking, where I have to go to release tension. Mommy always support you for this. Ya I know, before this mommy always support me. But that is different than this. Wake up please wake up! Please open your eyes mommy. I don’t have strange to tell you this. God, give my old siblings please. I don’t like this new. And by the way, I never trust you again. Back off ! I don’t like you. I know, im not a good person. But that was not wrong if I tell you which is good, and which is bad. Is up to you if you wanna hear or not. Just take you finger and put it to your ear. I don’t have any strange to face you. Just get the hell out. God never hate me. One day, ill wearing it. Just wait and see. You’re seriously meant to me. I don’t bloody care, what you’ll say again. You are seriously annoying. You are seriously FAKE! Before this, I love the way you treat me. You give me support. I do appreciate. You treats me very meanly. But now just like tje rain wash it away. I cant do anything. Thanks for your ending support before. I really really and seriously appreciate. Thanks so much. But what I really really have to do now is pray for your life. wish you happily ever and forever and wish you had your nice day there,love. god must wash this feeling* sorry for start complaining now.

P1max vs Streamyx

Streammy come next week and Beyond losttttttttt x)

holiday!

school holiday've been come now. i really dont know where to go. village? hangout? midvalley,the mines,amcorpmall is my place. dont give me any typical place like bukit bintang,pavillion or sg way. i hate teenagers there. i hate thier costum. arrogant! i miss Taman Jaya. sweet place,beautiful. not such a sorry sight. there's good place for jogging. playing badminton. 70cent if wanna go there by using putra LRT from Universiti station x) promote*

trailer 2012

i'll watch after exam done. Seriously i cant wait to watch it. Watch the trailer babe xxx

R.I.P

Rest In Peace Grandpa 2004

Rest In Peace Grandma 2005

Rest In Peace Aunt 2006

People cant stop leave me for 3years

I dont know what i have to say

million tears out from this eyes

I hope, no one will leave me again after this

eventhou i know, every human will die...

history

i remind my mind about when i fail in midterm 5months ago. That's really scared because i really confidence, i'll win in midterm. But....


When my babe friends ask,I say it dont matter, the fact is my lifes in tatters. I tell my mom, but she just silent there. I dont know how i can fail because i try harder. No one know. I hate mathematic. Are this's reason why? But i try to love it when i do exercise. Its working. Livin life as though im a real brother
Playin on street corners as a playa, Knowin really inside I've got more layers
'I was wrong sir' I say to the only teacher in my life worth a single prayer
He's in real difficult times with his child gone, thats worst than bein disowned
He had to listen to her last moan, dead shes all alone, a weeps her last tone
I'll survive cuz I read this book once bout this kid who survived a broken home
I feel so alone. The next day, midterm's come. I try to the the best. When the result out, i see and i said Whats happened has happened ! i try to do my best x( oh my god. Give me cigarette while i sad now. I want to release tension. Give me! I need to be ME. A rapist a killer a drug dealer livin overseas with eight wifeys cuold be me. Jus me, wiv my very own destiny. One exam Im talkin like my lifes over, made a mistake I need to act older. This is over dont worry about this kid I got all. I need in this bag I got illegally. Ye thats right I'll kick this life like everyone else who ever got ahead. Mum told me to leave 'U got nothin no-one wants' well then I'll be like u said 'Nothin' but a fucked up human makin this world a worce place to tred.



This is'nt one of my life experiences, I wanted to get completely out of character
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Now, Final examination come. Tomorrow, i have to change my character to the nerd human. I try to read book that i dislike. I try babe i try x) (fake smile)

pity baby

Go and Rest In Peace Babe. Go to the heaven <3

mommy

Mommy, i dont know why just now i really appreciate you. Thanks for make me born in this world. My words cant even describe how i thanks so much to you. Even now is not mother's day. But i will write. I dont really care. Appreciate mom's not only when mother's day come, but for sure everyday we have to appreciate her. She make us born. Thanks mommy. I grew up everyday. Thanks again. You gimme alot of love. Without you, i cant feel how sweet love in world and i never knew whats the meaning of love. But you did it. You give me know. I Love You more than words i can say. Thanks and thanks. I dont know, how i can thanks again to you. Sorry i cant say this in front of you. Im shy but i just want you to know, i do really appreciate you. Sorry because i cant tell you this xx mommy

lotsa hugs&kisses

babe modem x)

Oh yeah. Today i got my new modem ( how to spell? )I've change my broadband from maxis to P1 W1max. Seriously, this modem was much more Fast even Rm49 x) i just want to promo to all of you. Lets start to change your broadband to P1 W1Max x) That's really nice and goog ! but i dont know soon. Rm49 only babe. RM49 only yeah x)

wishes

I wish i can get the best result ever. But im not really hope my wishes will come true. Because i know, if i cant get it, ill dissapointed the most =(

chhoooseeee

This's songs that i adore so much. choooseee xD

Top 24 English

1. Lenka-Trouble is a friend

2. Black Eyed Peas- Bom Bom Pow

3. Down - Jay Sean Ft. Lil Wayne

4. Westlife - Queen Of My Heart

5. Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone

6. Jazon Mraz - Love For A Child

7. Hey There Delilah

8. Ciara Ft Justin Timberlake - Love And S--e-x-y And Magic

9. Darin Zanyar - Be What You Wanna Be.

10. David Archuleta Miley Cyrus-I Wanna Know You

11. flyleaf - flyleaf - all around me

12. HilaryDuff _someones watching over me

13. Jordin Sparks - Battlefield

14. my lips like sugar

15. Pitbull - I Know You Want Me

16. Ryan Cabrera - 10 - With You Gone

17. Taylor Swift-You belong with me

18. The Ataris - My Reply

19. When It Was Me

20. Westlife - Flying Without Wings

21. Only One- yellowcard

22. Hey Monday -Candles

23. Still Believe In Love

24.Thats When I Love You- Ashlyn

        

Top 6 Screamo, Metal, Death Metal xD

1. Eyes Set To Kill - Heights.mp3

2. Cradle Of Filth- The Death Of Love

3. Cradle Of Filth- Nymperthamine

4.  All That Remains- A Song For The Hopeless

5. The Distillers- For Tonight You're Only Here To Know

6. King Of The Carnival Creation

Top 9 Malay

1. Melda Ahmad- Kimia

2. Stacy- Pakai Buang

3. St12- Saat Terakhir

4. Samsons- Tak Bisa Memiliki

5. St12- Aku Masih Sayang

6. Wali- Egokah Aku

7. Wali- Baik Baik Sayang

8.D'Masiv- Merindukanmu

9. Bau- Warkah

Top 10  Nasyid =)

1. Hidayah- Desi Ratnasari

2. Hikmah

3. Doa Taubat

4. Astaghfirullah- Marshanda

5. Jalinan- Unic

6.NowSeeHeart- Damai Yang Hilang

7. Opic- Alhamdullilah

8. Opic- Taqwa

9. Ungu- sesungguhnya

10- Ungu- Surgamu

baby step

She start to taking her baby step to win in her final examination. Start to study hard. Start to read book that she dislike. Focus on Paper.  She try to be a good pupil And Her Lover will start to clap including all babe friends. She dont really care if she got first, second,third or whatsoever number in class. As long as she got the best result than before.  She never play in final examination anymore. That's what she want. She try to leave her G class. And going to the best class. If god willing. amen

Love for a child

I give you love for a child lyrics by Jason Mraz <3

There's a picture on my kitchen wall
Looks like Jesus and his friends involved
There's a party getting started in the yard
There's a couple getting steamy in the car parked in the drive
Was I too young to see this with my eyes?

By the pool last night, apparently
The chemicals weren't mixed properly
You hit your head and then forgot your name
And then you woke up at the bottom by the drain
And now your altitude and memory's a shame

What about taking this empty cup and filling it up
With a little bit more of innocence
I haven't had enough, it's probably because when you're young
It's okay to be easily ignored
I like to believe it was all about love for a child

And when the house was left in shambles
Who was there to handle all the broken bits of glass
Was it mom who put my dad out on his ass or the other way around
Well I'm far too old to care about that now

What about taking this empty cup and filling it up
With a little bit more of innocence
I haven't had enough, it's probably because when you're young
It's okay to be easily ignored
I'd like to believe it was all about love for a child

It's kinda nice to work the floor since the divorce
I've been enjoying both my Christmases and my birthday cakes
And taking drugs and making love at far too young an age
And they never check to see my grades
What a fool I'd be to start complaining now

What about taking this empty cup and filling it up
With a little bit more of innocence
I haven't had enough, it's probably because when you're young
It's okay to be easily ignored
I'd love to believe it's all about love for a child

It was all about love..

Lets Start To Sang Along <3

Its so touch =)

The feeling in his voice in this version has just totally blown me away. I love pretty much everything ive ever heard from this man but this is totally amazin. Jason, its very touch my heart eventough i have no story inside this song. That's One of the Greatest Song im hear. I am amazed Jason can play this without breaking down. It Kills me every time I hear it. His honesty and courage to make the best of life without self pity is the true beauty of this mystical melody. I cry everytime i hear it. This's old songs and Amazing song. Why hasn't it ever aired on the radio??

im bookworm

RM14.00 / RM21.95

Yes im bookworm. So what? haha. Today, im going to The Mines with my mom. Im going there just want to follow my mom. And im shocked when i see one book store. Like MPH MidValley. I really glad because i dont have to went to mid valley again if i wanna find any education book. The bookstore name's gramedia ( www.gramedia.com) i wonder, this's indonesia bookstore? because majority book's in indonesia language. I dont really understand. but nevermind. Honestly, i dont have a time to read this book. I'll read this after examination done. So i have to keep this book. Nehh all book there was extremely expensive. But i dont really care

Hear Me Out

You don’t impress me. You don’t intimidate me. Fuck you little bitches, walk this hall of shame. You don’t know who you are, you live to lie and lie to be free? You social fucks and with only friends that follow your trends. No one would care about you if you didn’t look like one of them. 
Know who your real friends are, make a pact and stand up tall. Be yourself and not a clone with personality flaws. Look at what you’ve become, look at all the typical people that walk around calling themselves better than all. Do you really want to live a lie? Do you really want to try? Try to be accepted, and accept the unaccepted when they follow your trend. 
Or would you rather be a human with morals that no one can break? Or maybe a good Friend? Fuck what people say, who are they to say? Huh? Nothing but a crowd of low life fucks that know nothing but how to judge. 

Take in consideration what damage you’ve won. Take in consideration the fact you have the power to be done. Pick your self up from the floor and wipe the fake off your chest. Walk with confidence and accept that you’re alone. Make this world the best, because its your own.

out love is perfect

Dear Imaginary Boyfriend
Hold me tight in your arms until I can't breathe no more.
Hug me like you're hugging your soft pillow late at night.
Kiss me on my soft lips and don't ever stop tasting my lips.
Grab my hand when we're going out, and let everyone know that I belong to You.
Pull me close when we're slow dancing in the streets and look me deep in the eyes to make my legs feel weak.
Make my heart melt by just smiling at me and say a simple " hey babe".
Call me three times a day just to tell me that you missed me.
Be there for me when I start crying, just be quite and listen to my problems and just hug me tight to make my problems flow away in your arms.
Feed me in public, and throw popcorn to me when we;re in the movies.
Make stupid jokes to make me laugh my tears out.
Kiss my forehead everytime when we have to say goodbye.
Tickle me in public and hug me just to stop laughing like a maniact.
Let me wear your cap, your accesorries and jacket and be proud of it.
Tell everyone how special I am to you.
Surprize me with gifts on special occasions.
Love me like you love your family, Love me more than you love yourself. Don't let me go.Don't lie to me. Don't cheat on me. Just stay with me baby.<3

future

Everynight, I’ll looking at the sky, and I’ll thinking, what will happen tomorrow, next week,next year and the day that will come. I love the fact that every morning is a new day and a new start. I will forget all my wrong doings. Yes for me, every morning is my new life. Start to close my old book, and start to open my new book. That’s the normal. . I am looking forward to the future and am excited to see what life brings me. Everyone have to do the same. Copy what I said just now. Put it to yourself if that’s good. Im always wanna be a good person. Yes I did but not fully. Actually now, I need someone to kill my loneliness. Im never mean, I need boyfriend. I mean, my family and myfriends. That’s all. Sometime I’ll feel, I’d rather be alone. I fake a smile with everyone I meet. But you never know, what my feeling inside. I never want to bother all my lover. I’d rather laugh with the sinners than cry with the saints, because the sinners are much more fun. I always keep this sentence don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened. But im not so worry. I know my problem will lost. And I’ll glad xx

Life

Sometime, if we’re in up, words cant even describe how much sweet this life. But if we’re in down, word just can said. Life is unfair. And anyone will give up in life. it’s the easiest thing people do.Dan juga saya. But we have to hold it together. With your family and maybe your friends. That’s true strength. Don’t ever said that you cant do it. Make up your mind, Open you Eyes. God never give us something that we cant do. The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a mosque.a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes..Im happy with my life now. Apa-apa pun, ignore what people with said about our lives. Just going straight. Please don’t ever look back. Ia akan buat kita lagi kuat. Bak kata pepatah, don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened. Belajar lah dari kesilapan. Belajar menghargai diri sendiri. Kehidupan ini dating dari tuhan. Tanpanya, kita tak akan dapat hidup seperti sekarang ini. I do love god. Because of dia, aku dapat kecapi kehidupan aku sekarang. Tapi aku tetap harus berjalan lagi. Aku nak mencari kebahagiaan yang sebenar. Aku nak berjaya. Aku nak tunjuk kejayaan itu kepada mak dan ayah. Itulah yang pasti. Carilah orang yang betul2 menyayangi kita. Family or maybe your friends. Jangan mudah mengalah kerana itulah yang membuat kita kalah dalam kehidupan. DON’T EVER SAID THE WORD FAIL! Pandanglah ke depan. Perjalanan masih lagi jauh dan harus berjalan dengan lebih jauh. Disitu, kita akan dapat mencari, dimana kehidupan kita. Kita akan dapat merasainya. Wait and see. Don’t you give up. Thinking about your family, friends and the most important thing is YOUR LIFE! Belajarlah menyintai kehidupan sendiri. Love life and life will love you back. Love people and they will love you back. For sure “i am not afraid of tomorrow, for i have seen yesterday and i love today” " remember today, for it is the beginning of always. today marks the start of a brave new future filled with all your dreams can hold. think truly to the future and make those dreams come true =)

Busy like Crazy

Start to counting days. Final exam will come next week.Will be busy On 3 November. I can’t wait to face it. I need someone to kill my nervous feeling. Please help me. But is there any? Ill be bookworm next week. This’s final. I hate final exam for your information. Because too many title on paper. And ill having headache if I see. Nahh coz of that, I need to study hard. I don’t know, what class ill be heading next year. Please please god. Don’t put me in down class. Its already enough when i’m in G now. And my close friends, in B and C. Up from me. Stupid isn’t it? I think, I don’t have to say my mathematic and science will be fail anymore. I know, that will become reality if I said. So from now, ill key my mouth. Mommy, Daddy, Siblings, Whole Family, Friends, and to all my lovers, pray for me. I hope, I can get the best result ever. Ill show off my good result to you lovers. I’ll present it. Amen. God willing

*STOP FACEBOOK-ING
*STOP MYSPACE-ING
*STOP LEPAK-ING
*STOP HI5-ING
*STOP TWITTER-ING

*I’ll be in good quality times 2weeks after this. I’ll catch you later <3>

Occasionally online. Taraa~

sweet statement

HAHA. This's bigger statement. But dont misinterpet it. I hate study but i love to learn =) No wonder what people will said. I am who i am. I'll ignore 'em all the time. Yes like i said. I hate study. I'll got migrain if i reading book like science, mathematic and everything. I hate when im going to school, and see to many assingment on my table. What The Fish! What The Heck! I need to done all of that for 2hours. If not, i'll fail my exam when final come. God bless teacher -_-

End of our life?

Apparently, Planet X (a.k.a. Nibiru) was spotted by astronomers in the early 1980's in the outermost reaches of the Solar System. It has been tracked by infrared observatories; seen lurking around in the Kuiper Belt and now it is speeding right toward us and will enter the inner Solar System in 2012. So what does this mean to us? Well, the effects of the approach of Planet X on our planet will be biblical, and what's more the effects are being felt right now. Millions, even billions of people will die, global warming will increase; earthquakes, drought, famine, wars, social collapse, even killer solar flares will be caused by Nibiru blasting through the core of the Solar System. All of this will happen in 2012, and we must begin preparing for our demise right now…
As investigated in my previous article "No Doomsday in 2012", a lot of weight had been placed on the end of an ancient Mayan calendar, the "Long Count". According to this calendar and Mayan myth, something is going to happen on December 21st, 2012. Now the world's Planet X supporters seem to have calculated that this hypothetical, deadly planet will arrive from a highly eccentric orbit to wreak gravitational havoc on Earth, sparking geological, social, economic and environmental damage, killing a high proportion of life… in 2012

* i know a lot of people are scared coz read this. im very interested in this possibility. after all its life or death. but i am skeptical. all i have to say is that to the people that arent sure what to think to be skeptical but not close minded. look for the signs. if its true then you'll know for sure in the next few years before it happens. if not then just live your life. after all we're alive to live right? WALLAHUALAM. nehh but im trust this for 50%. Im not fully trust. Only god know what will happen soon. We're as muslim, just pray for it. Hope that this wont happen. Lets we start pray for it. Even this wont happen, but i know, we can see and open our eyes now, our life is not long. World's too old. We just wait the day. Ya Allah !

not attend to school

Yes im not attend to school today. Lazy and lazy. Everyone know it. I cant move my legs to school like usual. But i can move my legs to the mall. i can walking to the mines. HAHA *evil laugh* nahh who's dont know me?? tell me now :p Whatever it is, tomorrow i'll going to school. But i dont care. Coz i've to schooling just for 1day. hehe. And i know, i got alot of assingment tomorrow. God, You Must Help Me ! I cant do it :/ if i can, of course i'll try to do it. I know, teacher will force me. Please Go ahead, I dont give a damn ! :/

Soulmate ♥

1. Mommy, Daddy <33

2. Siblings <3

3. My whole family <3

4. All my friends <3

They're a part of my life. I cant alive and breath without them and i've nothing. I know i cant grow up without all of them. That's all i can say. I just can say, they're my angel from heaven and god sent it to me. They're important for me and also all people out there. Everyone will admit it. I do ♥ all of them. Thanks coz take my heart. I love them more than i love my life. I love my classmate in school too ! Theres got my close friends indeed. Even we're aint that close.

For Your Information, now i can go further coz of all of YOU!

I ♥ you =)

nervous, happy

Im waiting for my exam time. I dont know whether i can do or not. But i hope, i can. Pray for me guys :) hah anyway, look at my blog. That's better than before right? hihi now, im already know how to edit. so i can edit anything i want. yeah pretty (for me) whatever it is, leave your comment before you out. okay take care <3

Open House on Deepavali month

Today, i would like to tell all of you that im going to open house today. nehh open house for last raya. not deepavali. lol. But im not sure i wanna going or not. Seems like im lazy today. Lastnight, im already deal with maria. yeah maria. ym with her and she invited me to go to azwa's house at Apartment Zapin. But know what, i ask her, we have to wearing baju kurung or not? but she haven't reply me and at the same time, she's online. gr. She live in Cheras Jaya. And She will come to impian. So i think, that's good cause i dont have to use bus as a transpot. My home isn't so far from azwa's house. We live at the same "taman" so, that's not a big problem. And about my friend fatin. She also have open house at her house. Maria invited me to go. But i cant go. 1.Fatin's not invite me 2.Mommy'll never give permission 3.Im lazy to go. Haha. So, i dont know whether i'll going or not today. Just pray for me. Hihi. Azwa and i known as a friend since we were 10. So, am idiot if i'm not going?

counting days

saturday,sunday,monday, TUESDAY! argh. 3days only i can relaxing at home and after this, i need go to school. oh suck. sometime i love school, and sometime i hate school. i dont know why. that's me. i could not change this attitude since i was little. gahh but its okay. ill try to go. final exam's around the corner. i dont have much time to enjoy. perhaps

take this and do your own

  Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?
Nope.wrong person

Is there one person you look at and automatically smile?
Yes of course 

How do you feel about girls smoking?
She just want people see her n said “wow she’s so hot” ;/

Do you think "I love you" are strong words?
Depends 

What time will you be getting up tomorrow morning?
10am or 12pm. Woah.hahaha 

Do you look at the keyboard when you type?
Nope2. im clever so, I dont’ve to look at the keyboard xD

Are you a jealous person?
Yup2 

Soda or milk?
Soda.im never drink milk.yuck

Are you someone who worries too much?
Yes I am

Do you believe in love?
Of course

What song is stuck in your head?
That’s when I love you, ashlyn <3

Someone knocks on your window at 2 am, who do you want it to be?
Parents.hihi

Wanna have kids before you’re 30?
Yes of course

Name something you have to do tomorrow?
Blogging nd watch the stupid sekar on prima.i wanna know,whats the next xD 

If you were kicked out, would your best friend let you live with them?
I hope that she will

Do you think two people in love can last forever?
Hm,im not sure

What were you doing at midnight?
Facebook-ing,steal food from barn buddy 

What jewelry are you wearing?
None

How late did you stay up last night?
Around 6

Has a boy/girl ever called you babe or baby?
Yes.haha.but they just make me ewww.

Do you drink the milk after you finish cereal or just leave it in the bowl?
leave it there 

Where is the next far off place you will travel?
Idk.gimme some idea 

What is the last thing you did before bed last night?
Thinking about future 

What are you planning on doing after this?
sleeping

Is your heart broken right now?
nope at all

What would your name be with the first three letters?
INI ? haha

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
Yes sure

Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night person.im ghost man im ghost xD

Do you want to get married?
someday

Who is the oldest person on your top friends?
My sister.21years old already xD

Do you like to cuddle?
sure

Who was your last IM from?
Im don’t IM

Do you cry easily?
Yup 

Where was your profile picture taken?
At homie

What should you be doing right now?
Blogging.why ask?

When was the last time you watched a horror movie?
forgotten

Do you have any drugs in your room?
Sure not!silly question

Do you take walks often?
Depends

What was the last thing you drank?
milo 

Have you ever broken anyone's heart?
Yes I do.sorry dear

Do you want to see somebody right now?
VERY!i wanna see my old friends

Do you think you can last in a relationship for six months?
depends

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
Yes of course 

What was the first thing you said this morning?
Mommy,im hungry 

Has anyone upset you in the last week?
Nope actually

Do you prefer dark or light hair on the opposite sex?
Light hair 

Why aren't you dating the person you want?
Idk at all.dont ask me 

Do you believe what goes around comes around?
yes 

Is your birthday on a holiday?
Haha yes.on Sunday.but im celebrate it on Saturday.but its already pass.weirdo~

If you could have a plane ticket to anywhere right now, Where would you go?
MAURITIUS! 

Did you enjoy your day today?
Yes sure

Does anyone think you are a bitch?
Hell yeah

Do you miss someone?
Yup of course.DEADLY!

Are you different from how you were a year ago?
Yup.too many different

Do you straighten your hair everyday?
Sure nope.i’ve been rebonding my hair.so,why I have to straight it? 

Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
BETTER BE

Are you wearing pants? If so, where did you get them from?
Giant 

What are you listening to?
Stay my baby by Miranda 

What color's your shirt?
Green apple

Are you dying to take off your clothes?
Yes I am

What do you always take with you?
Phone

Do you hate the last guy/girl you were talking to?
For sure’s noooo

urm urm pathetic

Nehh. This song remind me of michael jackson and also the video when he gathered the children from gaza or ahh i dont know where. Hey, do hear it. Sorry cause i just can find the video with lyric. But no worry. Ill try to find the official video xxx

Rest In Peace Michael,

gone wrong

Blogger start to gone wrong. I cant center some of my word. Hey, fixes this up please! FASTER!

School Holiday in second session

School holiday's come for one day. Its yesterday. Im feel so lazy to come but i try to move my legs. Its suck cause only 20person i guess, in class. Nahh if im not going, sure mommy will angry so i have and have to come. Im already get the letter from school cause im not attending to school for 14 days. Hihi. I ignore it. I really dont care what they'll wrote about me. Just do what you want teacher. Haha. I Love It <3 cause not anyone will get it. And im the one in a million. Im special then. Haha. Now, im having my school holiday for second session. I got 5days holiday. But, next week, im going to school back. Start to study back. Start to see my lovely book back. gahh its suck. Yeah Deepavali will come in 2days. So, i wanna wish Happy Deepavali to all India/Hindu around the world. Enjoy your deepavali and smile. For my teacher, you can write anything about me in your letter and post it to my post box. Im waiting. I Love You <3 Muahxx

hello pathfinder

I dont know, whats going on with my title just now. HAHA. Ignore it . Ehem ehem at first, i wanna say sorry cause im not update my blog for a 5days. Sorry, sorry. Anyway, im still thinking about my final exam on November. Im not ready to face it. Im scare to face with my science and mathematic subject. I dont know what i have to do. Well,actually i understand cause im not too focus on it and that's why i cant do that. Fyi, i've do the best. But the result i got was still same. Not even change even 1%. Blahhh. Next year, ill having my "penilaian menengah rendah" (PMR) so so, i still dont know how to having it. I think, God must help me !

what a weekas

oh no.im waiting for school time.school holiday was very suck now coz my week is soooo bored.everyday,ill do the stupid things.and sometime,that can be a bizarrre day. I woke up today, with my messy hair. Lastnight,i'm glad because i'm not having a nightmare and also sweet dream. By the way, i miss my friends deadly. I wanna meet them when school's already start. Even sometime, i'll gettin mad on them, but friends's still friends. I didn't hate them and i never blame them when my problem's come. Well, forgive me cause im not saying that all of you is my friendship. But that's true. Ill never pretend it. I dont mind if youll gettin angry on me or what. Just blame me. Im not a good friend. I admit it :) closed story. today i and my sister are invited go to open house. at Jln Resak or Cengal ( i dont know) . So, we have to go. But i feel so lazy, what if my sister only go? gahh . hey, like i told you before, my exam is around the corner. And now, i haven't start to study coz my mind is pregnant cause of pressure. Woah Dammit ! i think, i have to open the new mind =) i have to focus on it cause this's final exam! Not MidTerm again. Blahhh

sweet dream

oh yeah.now, its already evening and i wanna share with all of you about my dream lastnight.i've been dream, both of my sister's pregnant.kah kah kah.this's funny.but seriously,i dream about this tonight.how happy me ! but all is just dream.i wish, this's gonna be reality one day.okay back to the story.in my dream, both of my sister, goin to "kedai runcit" and buy all things for baby.stroller,bottle and everythings.so cute mann.they are waiting for their deliver time.im waiting so and im really happy in my dream till i could not said anything.SERIOUSLY! when im start to happy.. my alarm's kriiinnng, krriiinnng. oh my gosh! just dream? god kidding me :'( but after i having this dream, im start to laugh to myself coz idk "kedai runcit" have things for baby? are you serious? kah kah kah kah. funny funny :D

I never ask people to being my followers unless i know them. Just read and up to you guys, if you wanna be my followers or not. I don't mind at all. Thank you xxx

sadly,deadly

idk why.when im wanna blogging,of course the mood is (angry) today,its all about friends.for sure,i dont've any bestfriendsship.sorry to say.i dont have any.friend's just make me angry.idk what friends mean, but people said, friends mean's someone who can hear out story nd who can always beside us when we start to sad.for me, ALL WRONGS! sometimes friendship's road is a little bumpy.Or nauseatingly twisty.Or it's a complete and total dead end.this's true.trust me people.this's true.sorry for friends, who will sad coz i wrote about this just now.but sorry, you're just my FRIENDS,NOT FRIENDSHIP! TOTALLY NOT! :(

hello whats up guys? whats your news for today? anyway,today idk what i wanna blog.hihi.lastnight,im already gettin mad on something but today, i wanna be cool.yeah cool :D you know what,i got 2weeks holiday from schoool.pmr.but im not sure im happy or not cause, if im holiday,idk what i've to do at homies.i will BORED! nd if im goin to school, sure i will BORED also.guys,you have to help me.gimme some idea.but make sure,i dont have to pay you well :) yesterday,someone already invited me go to his home, but ill never come.im the girl who's love to spending time at home.nd mommy's will never give me chance to go.mommy's will never give me permission if im goin alone.she'll give me permission, if i have someone beside me.bla bla.this's already enough when they start to controlling me like crazy.im sick nd tired being over-controlled.id rather be alone i think.hey guys.im not entirely active in myspace.im just gettin bored.i dont know, how to talk nd give the right message.people will alway misinterpet it.lately,myspace gone wrong.so i cant replying comment nd also message.im waiting for tom to fixes this up.be patient.bye guys see you later

Guys,you know what, today i had the most annoying day in my life.i dont know why this will hapen.gr anyway, im gettin mad on something.im so stupid coz im invite him to come nd see my blog.but idk why with you, up to me if i wanna blogging with english language or what.im still know how to blogging in malay language.but hey! course in university,subject in highschool's using english in the subject aite? so whats wrong with you? you me me laugh man.may be you are not fluent in english. but am i care? im not trying to act like what you said.but, this's reality man,stop talking about my blog again.cause, ill blogging with english language forever nd ever man.as long as i know how to speak nd blogging in english, but you? hm.i know, malay language is our language. but am i stupid if i speak in english.this's none of your bussines.or you just gettin angry coz im blog in english, nd you dont know,whats does it mean?i think, you can open your vocabulary or maybe ask me.im pretty sure you will never know, what i say right now rite? you're retards.as malaysian we've to know english also.coz if we go to other country/on vacation, of coz we've to using english when we speak, coz they'll never understand our language okay.stop judging me again dude.you're idiot nd you should die.open your eyes nd thinking about it please.this's my blog, and i can blog anything.we will stop the noise here and get to the real noise LIVE.YOU'RE NOSINESS!

sentulll bebeyyhh :D

oh yes.today, i would like to share with all of you, what i feel, when im goin to sentul with my family, lyn's brother and her lil sis.okay.sad, happy. mixed feeling ! There's been a long time im not goin there.seriously, i miss my all friends there deadly, my life in sentul when i was little, jakuzi tradisional .hahaha.im still remember, my friend's name .the name's azwan, azmer(cik miah's son.),pity(nieghbour),fazlyn(nieghbour) and more.i miss them badly. We haven't meet up since 2006 after my aunt passed away.nd if they make a party,they wont invited me.gr.but i try to forget about past nd try to think positive.okay,ignore it.then, just now i meet my old friends,you know what, he's so tall ! but me? xD serious,im so short than them.When my late aunt still in this world,i'll went to sentul.That's my usually routine when the school holiday. And my late aunt always brought us to the pool that located in vista angkasa. My friends in sentul usually come to my village. so, after my aunt passed away , everything have been change. for almost 3years, i haven't meet them. To be honest, i got crisis with my uncle. then, When my uncle married his 2nd wife, Our family was not invited. And for the last year, We meet back .swear ! i miss that home,i miss my friends and everything that regarding me and them .and today, i got 1 news that Kg, Chubadak Sentul will be collapse soon.

Raya's come !

HELLO PEOPLE! 

 i want to wish SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all muslim around the world ni

for words might which hurt and for joke you cant take millions of apologies tau! 

0-0 okay? :) :) 

oh my godness!

oh my god!oh my god! i dont know, why today such a very wonderful and nice day.HAHA.For me lah.idk how about you.Im so happy today bcoz i got a wonderful and nice result (that's why i said today is wonderful and nice) ppfftt!

BM ; :D

SC; :D

BI ; :D

SJ ; :D

that's all i go it today.And i know,my mate subject totally failed! when la i can get the best mate result! and everyone can said "i'm proud of you !" dammmnnn! but whatever is it, im still nd so proud with my result.thanks god :)

letter for ....

Dear Who're dumping,

I'm terribly sorry I had to do this through a letter, this might save our asses and make me look better, now that we're both sleeping with other people.. This note will be the last memory you'll ever have of me, Im bouncing and not lookin back.. Don't let it get you all upset inside, I blame your you. It is because of your inability to quit picking your nose problems that keep me from being even remotely interested in continuing this relationship with you.

You'd be much better off finding a person that can deal with wonderful way you Never shaved your arm pits. I might miss certain things about you such as the time you .The time that you still here for me.Time that you beside me

I'm glad this is done and we're going separate directions for good. I think you'll find someone to love again. And hopefully we will still be close buddies.

Have a nice life,
     tedd

When my morning broken
My breakfast my research
My natural selection

My lovely darling
What’s up for today’s news?

Look there Polly
This noon,our Sandwalk stroll
Through the light and the dark side
See this plant in the greenhouse
Trees,how things going on?
Have you done enough of your own life?

I’m tired strolling, Polly my dog
I’m going home for lunch now
You take care of yourself

Lovely darling
Whas going on that political issues?
Shall I be here sitting?
In my big chair by the fireplace
and wrote letters to them?

My love, my darling
Let me rest for a while in my bedroom,on this sofa
Will you please read again that now
Let’s me listen to you again
My lovely darling

Now it’s time for my late evening stroll.
Or my research,or my drawing room
My miscellaneous stuff
Or just being idle
Am i? Are you there darling?

Sunset, a lovely sunset
I better get my nap upstairs again
With a novel read again by my darling
Again and again
How am I living supposed to live without you?

Oh,what a wonderful night life
What a lovely dinner
To have with notable love one
Later,let’s backgammon
Sure I kept score of
Every game
We two are playing darling

Now,Polly hear I’m
Reading this to you
Scientific text in the drawing
Room or study echos
But wait…Did you hear our darling…
Playing that drand pianofone?
So lovely,right Polly?

It’s 10.30 pm
It’s late now,I’m ready for bed
Can you call me darling?

Good night earth.good night trees
Good night to my darling Emma
Good night to all of you

And if I don’t wake up anymore
Take care my Polly’s kingdom,take care my Emma
Take care my Sandwalk Street of trees
Will you take care for me?


Kuala Lumpur/November 2003
My deadication to my Darwin @ his kingdom

11 November 1838-Charles Darwin proposed marriage,
To his cousin Emma Wedgwood

My Dearest Friends,

Honestly, i dont've much time to update my blog everyday.I'm so busy with my schedule.Hope you guys know.everyday, i've to schooling at 1 pm. and back from school at 7.30 pm. i know, its to late. but im not the king to changing all this.thats my activity.after back, from school,i've to do my homework and whatsoever shit.im always praying, to stoped all this.ergh == im sick == but its okay. i know,as student i've to study! yeah :DD:D ouh ya.i've to doin my research everyday.ya thats my secret thing, and i can't share with all of you.im sory dear.anyway,lest keep in touch with me and lets keep our wonderful earth xD

mid term exam

mid term exam will come, nd pray for me okay? hope i can get the best result ever.god willing :) woahh how mate? how sc? im nervous, im nervous.god, please help me god, i wanna be like someone who;s already get 21A1(am i true?) aminn~ okay, start to focus tedd, nd thinking bout future,fuh~ ill try. anyway guys, maybe after this,ill late to update my blog. Sorry readers. okay i have some works, so catch you later after exam done!