31 October 2009

im bookworm


RM14.00 / RM21.95

Yes im bookworm. So what? haha. Today, im going to The Mines with my mom. Im going there just want to follow my mom. And im shocked when i see one book store. Like MPH MidValley. I really glad because i dont have to went to mid valley again if i wanna find any education book. The bookstore name's gramedia ( www.gramedia.com) i wonder, this's indonesia bookstore? because majority book's in indonesia language. I dont really understand. but nevermind. Honestly, i dont have a time to read this book. I'll read this after examination done. So i have to keep this book. Nehh all book there was extremely expensive. But i dont really care

30 October 2009

Hear Me Out

You don’t impress me. You don’t intimidate me. Fuck you little bitches, walk this hall of shame. You don’t know who you are, you live to lie and lie to be free? You social fucks and with only friends that follow your trends. No one would care about you if you didn’t look like one of them. 
Know who your real friends are, make a pact and stand up tall. Be yourself and not a clone with personality flaws. Look at what you’ve become, look at all the typical people that walk around calling themselves better than all. Do you really want to live a lie? Do you really want to try? Try to be accepted, and accept the unaccepted when they follow your trend. 
Or would you rather be a human with morals that no one can break? Or maybe a good Friend? Fuck what people say, who are they to say? Huh? Nothing but a crowd of low life fucks that know nothing but how to judge. 

Take in consideration what damage you’ve won. Take in consideration the fact you have the power to be done. Pick your self up from the floor and wipe the fake off your chest. Walk with confidence and accept that you’re alone. Make this world the best, because its your own.

out love is perfect



Dear Imaginary Boyfriend
Hold me tight in your arms until I can't breathe no more.
Hug me like you're hugging your soft pillow late at night.
Kiss me on my soft lips and don't ever stop tasting my lips.
Grab my hand when we're going out, and let everyone know that I belong to You.
Pull me close when we're slow dancing in the streets and look me deep in the eyes to make my legs feel weak.
Make my heart melt by just smiling at me and say a simple " hey babe".
Call me three times a day just to tell me that you missed me.
Be there for me when I start crying, just be quite and listen to my problems and just hug me tight to make my problems flow away in your arms.
Feed me in public, and throw popcorn to me when we;re in the movies.
Make stupid jokes to make me laugh my tears out.
Kiss my forehead everytime when we have to say goodbye.
Tickle me in public and hug me just to stop laughing like a maniact.
Let me wear your cap, your accesorries and jacket and be proud of it.
Tell everyone how special I am to you.
Surprize me with gifts on special occasions.
Love me like you love your family, Love me more than you love yourself. Don't let me go.Don't lie to me. Don't cheat on me. Just stay with me baby.<3


future

Everynight, I’ll looking at the sky, and I’ll thinking, what will happen tomorrow, next week,next year and the day that will come. I love the fact that every morning is a new day and a new start. I will forget all my wrong doings. Yes for me, every morning is my new life. Start to close my old book, and start to open my new book. That’s the normal. . I am looking forward to the future and am excited to see what life brings me. Everyone have to do the same. Copy what I said just now. Put it to yourself if that’s good. Im always wanna be a good person. Yes I did but not fully. Actually now, I need someone to kill my loneliness. Im never mean, I need boyfriend. I mean, my family and myfriends. That’s all. Sometime I’ll feel, I’d rather be alone. I fake a smile with everyone I meet. But you never know, what my feeling inside. I never want to bother all my lover. I’d rather laugh with the sinners than cry with the saints, because the sinners are much more fun. I always keep this sentence don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened. But im not so worry. I know my problem will lost. And I’ll glad xx

28 October 2009

Life

Sometime, if we’re in up, words cant even describe how much sweet this life. But if we’re in down, word just can said. Life is unfair. And anyone will give up in life. it’s the easiest thing people do.Dan juga saya. But we have to hold it together. With your family and maybe your friends. That’s true strength. Don’t ever said that you cant do it. Make up your mind, Open you Eyes. God never give us something that we cant do. The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a mosque.a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes..Im happy with my life now. Apa-apa pun, ignore what people with said about our lives. Just going straight. Please don’t ever look back. Ia akan buat kita lagi kuat. Bak kata pepatah, don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened. Belajar lah dari kesilapan. Belajar menghargai diri sendiri. Kehidupan ini dating dari tuhan. Tanpanya, kita tak akan dapat hidup seperti sekarang ini. I do love god. Because of dia, aku dapat kecapi kehidupan aku sekarang. Tapi aku tetap harus berjalan lagi. Aku nak mencari kebahagiaan yang sebenar. Aku nak berjaya. Aku nak tunjuk kejayaan itu kepada mak dan ayah. Itulah yang pasti. Carilah orang yang betul2 menyayangi kita. Family or maybe your friends. Jangan mudah mengalah kerana itulah yang membuat kita kalah dalam kehidupan. DON’T EVER SAID THE WORD FAIL! Pandanglah ke depan. Perjalanan masih lagi jauh dan harus berjalan dengan lebih jauh. Disitu, kita akan dapat mencari, dimana kehidupan kita. Kita akan dapat merasainya. Wait and see. Don’t you give up. Thinking about your family, friends and the most important thing is YOUR LIFE! Belajarlah menyintai kehidupan sendiri. Love life and life will love you back. Love people and they will love you back. For sure “i am not afraid of tomorrow, for i have seen yesterday and i love today” " remember today, for it is the beginning of always. today marks the start of a brave new future filled with all your dreams can hold. think truly to the future and make those dreams come true =)

26 October 2009

Busy like Crazy

Start to counting days. Final exam will come next week.Will be busy On 3 November. I can’t wait to face it. I need someone to kill my nervous feeling. Please help me. But is there any? Ill be bookworm next week. This’s final. I hate final exam for your information. Because too many title on paper. And ill having headache if I see. Nahh coz of that, I need to study hard. I don’t know, what class ill be heading next year. Please please god. Don’t put me in down class. Its already enough when i’m in G now. And my close friends, in B and C. Up from me. Stupid isn’t it? I think, I don’t have to say my mathematic and science will be fail anymore. I know, that will become reality if I said. So from now, ill key my mouth. Mommy, Daddy, Siblings, Whole Family, Friends, and to all my lovers, pray for me. I hope, I can get the best result ever. Ill show off my good result to you lovers. I’ll present it. Amen. God willing


*STOP FACEBOOK-ING
*STOP MYSPACE-ING
*STOP LEPAK-ING
*STOP HI5-ING
*STOP TWITTER-ING

*I’ll be in good quality times 2weeks after this. I’ll catch you later <3>
Occasionally online. Taraa~

24 October 2009

sweet statement


HAHA. This's bigger statement. But dont misinterpet it. I hate study but i love to learn =) No wonder what people will said. I am who i am. I'll ignore 'em all the time. Yes like i said. I hate study. I'll got migrain if i reading book like science, mathematic and everything. I hate when im going to school, and see to many assingment on my table. What The Fish! What The Heck! I need to done all of that for 2hours. If not, i'll fail my exam when final come. God bless teacher -_-

23 October 2009

End of our life?



Apparently, Planet X (a.k.a. Nibiru) was spotted by astronomers in the early 1980's in the outermost reaches of the Solar System. It has been tracked by infrared observatories; seen lurking around in the Kuiper Belt and now it is speeding right toward us and will enter the inner Solar System in 2012. So what does this mean to us? Well, the effects of the approach of Planet X on our planet will be biblical, and what's more the effects are being felt right now. Millions, even billions of people will die, global warming will increase; earthquakes, drought, famine, wars, social collapse, even killer solar flares will be caused by Nibiru blasting through the core of the Solar System. All of this will happen in 2012, and we must begin preparing for our demise right now…
As investigated in my previous article "No Doomsday in 2012", a lot of weight had been placed on the end of an ancient Mayan calendar, the "Long Count". According to this calendar and Mayan myth, something is going to happen on December 21st, 2012. Now the world's Planet X supporters seem to have calculated that this hypothetical, deadly planet will arrive from a highly eccentric orbit to wreak gravitational havoc on Earth, sparking geological, social, economic and environmental damage, killing a high proportion of life… in 2012



* i know a lot of people are scared coz read this. im very interested in this possibility. after all its life or death. but i am skeptical. all i have to say is that to the people that arent sure what to think to be skeptical but not close minded. look for the signs. if its true then you'll know for sure in the next few years before it happens. if not then just live your life. after all we're alive to live right? WALLAHUALAM. nehh but im trust this for 50%. Im not fully trust. Only god know what will happen soon. We're as muslim, just pray for it. Hope that this wont happen. Lets we start pray for it. Even this wont happen, but i know, we can see and open our eyes now, our life is not long. World's too old. We just wait the day. Ya Allah !

22 October 2009

not attend to school

Yes im not attend to school today. Lazy and lazy. Everyone know it. I cant move my legs to school like usual. But i can move my legs to the mall. i can walking to the mines. HAHA *evil laugh* nahh who's dont know me?? tell me now :p Whatever it is, tomorrow i'll going to school. But i dont care. Coz i've to schooling just for 1day. hehe. And i know, i got alot of assingment tomorrow. God, You Must Help Me ! I cant do it :/ if i can, of course i'll try to do it. I know, teacher will force me. Please Go ahead, I dont give a damn ! :/

Soulmate ♥

1. Mommy, Daddy <33
2. Siblings <3
3. My whole family <3
4. All my friends <3

They're a part of my life. I cant alive and breath without them and i've nothing. I know i cant grow up without all of them. That's all i can say. I just can say, they're my angel from heaven and god sent it to me. They're important for me and also all people out there. Everyone will admit it. I do ♥ all of them. Thanks coz take my heart. I love them more than i love my life. I love my classmate in school too ! Theres got my close friends indeed. Even we're aint that close.
For Your Information, now i can go further coz of all of YOU!
I ♥ you =)

20 October 2009

nervous, happy

Im waiting for my exam time. I dont know whether i can do or not. But i hope, i can. Pray for me guys :) hah anyway, look at my blog. That's better than before right? hihi now, im already know how to edit. so i can edit anything i want. yeah pretty (for me) whatever it is, leave your comment before you out. okay take care <3

16 October 2009

Open House on Deepavali month

Today, i would like to tell all of you that im going to open house today. nehh open house for last raya. not deepavali. lol. But im not sure i wanna going or not. Seems like im lazy today. Lastnight, im already deal with maria. yeah maria. ym with her and she invited me to go to azwa's house at Apartment Zapin. But know what, i ask her, we have to wearing baju kurung or not? but she haven't reply me and at the same time, she's online. gr. She live in Cheras Jaya. And She will come to impian. So i think, that's good cause i dont have to use bus as a transpot. My home isn't so far from azwa's house. We live at the same "taman" so, that's not a big problem. And about my friend fatin. She also have open house at her house. Maria invited me to go. But i cant go. 1.Fatin's not invite me 2.Mommy'll never give permission 3.Im lazy to go. Haha. So, i dont know whether i'll going or not today. Just pray for me. Hihi. Azwa and i known as a friend since we were 10. So, am idiot if i'm not going?

counting days

saturday,sunday,monday, TUESDAY! argh. 3days only i can relaxing at home and after this, i need go to school. oh suck. sometime i love school, and sometime i hate school. i dont know why. that's me. i could not change this attitude since i was little. gahh but its okay. ill try to go. final exam's around the corner. i dont have much time to enjoy. perhaps

take this and do your own


  Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?
Nope.wrong person

Is there one person you look at and automatically smile?
Yes of course 

How do you feel about girls smoking?
She just want people see her n said “wow she’s so hot” ;/

Do you think "I love you" are strong words?
Depends 

What time will you be getting up tomorrow morning?
10am or 12pm. Woah.hahaha 

Do you look at the keyboard when you type?
Nope2. im clever so, I dont’ve to look at the keyboard xD

Are you a jealous person?
Yup2 

Soda or milk?
Soda.im never drink milk.yuck

Are you someone who worries too much?
Yes I am

Do you believe in love?
Of course

What song is stuck in your head?
That’s when I love you, ashlyn <3

Someone knocks on your window at 2 am, who do you want it to be?
Parents.hihi

Wanna have kids before you’re 30?
Yes of course

Name something you have to do tomorrow?
Blogging nd watch the stupid sekar on prima.i wanna know,whats the next xD 

If you were kicked out, would your best friend let you live with them?
I hope that she will

Do you think two people in love can last forever?
Hm,im not sure

What were you doing at midnight?
Facebook-ing,steal food from barn buddy 

What jewelry are you wearing?
None

How late did you stay up last night?
Around 6

Has a boy/girl ever called you babe or baby?
Yes.haha.but they just make me ewww.

Do you drink the milk after you finish cereal or just leave it in the bowl?
leave it there 

Where is the next far off place you will travel?
Idk.gimme some idea 

What is the last thing you did before bed last night?
Thinking about future 

What are you planning on doing after this?
sleeping

Is your heart broken right now?
nope at all

What would your name be with the first three letters?
INI ? haha

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
Yes sure

Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night person.im ghost man im ghost xD

Do you want to get married?
someday

Who is the oldest person on your top friends?
My sister.21years old already xD

Do you like to cuddle?
sure

Who was your last IM from?
Im don’t IM

Do you cry easily?
Yup 

Where was your profile picture taken?
At homie

What should you be doing right now?
Blogging.why ask?

When was the last time you watched a horror movie?
forgotten

Do you have any drugs in your room?
Sure not!silly question

Do you take walks often?
Depends

What was the last thing you drank?
milo 

Have you ever broken anyone's heart?
Yes I do.sorry dear

Do you want to see somebody right now?
VERY!i wanna see my old friends

Do you think you can last in a relationship for six months?
depends

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
Yes of course 

What was the first thing you said this morning?
Mommy,im hungry 

Has anyone upset you in the last week?
Nope actually

Do you prefer dark or light hair on the opposite sex?
Light hair 

Why aren't you dating the person you want?
Idk at all.dont ask me 

Do you believe what goes around comes around?
yes 

Is your birthday on a holiday?
Haha yes.on Sunday.but im celebrate it on Saturday.but its already pass.weirdo~

If you could have a plane ticket to anywhere right now, Where would you go?
MAURITIUS! 

Did you enjoy your day today?
Yes sure

Does anyone think you are a bitch?
Hell yeah

Do you miss someone?
Yup of course.DEADLY!

Are you different from how you were a year ago?
Yup.too many different

Do you straighten your hair everyday?
Sure nope.i’ve been rebonding my hair.so,why I have to straight it? 

Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
BETTER BE

Are you wearing pants? If so, where did you get them from?
Giant 

What are you listening to?
Stay my baby by Miranda 

What color's your shirt?
Green apple

Are you dying to take off your clothes?
Yes I am

What do you always take with you?
Phone

Do you hate the last guy/girl you were talking to?
For sure’s noooo


urm urm pathetic

Nehh. This song remind me of michael jackson and also the video when he gathered the children from gaza or ahh i dont know where. Hey, do hear it. Sorry cause i just can find the video with lyric. But no worry. Ill try to find the official video xxx

Rest In Peace Michael,


15 October 2009

gone wrong

Blogger start to gone wrong. I cant center some of my word. Hey, fixes this up please! FASTER!

School Holiday in second session

School holiday's come for one day. Its yesterday. Im feel so lazy to come but i try to move my legs. Its suck cause only 20person i guess, in class. Nahh if im not going, sure mommy will angry so i have and have to come. Im already get the letter from school cause im not attending to school for 14 days. Hihi. I ignore it. I really dont care what they'll wrote about me. Just do what you want teacher. Haha. I Love It <3 cause not anyone will get it. And im the one in a million. Im special then. Haha. Now, im having my school holiday for second session. I got 5days holiday. But, next week, im going to school back. Start to study back. Start to see my lovely book back. gahh its suck. Yeah Deepavali will come in 2days. So, i wanna wish Happy Deepavali to all India/Hindu around the world. Enjoy your deepavali and smile. For my teacher, you can write anything about me in your letter and post it to my post box. Im waiting. I Love You <3 Muahxx

hello pathfinder

I dont know, whats going on with my title just now. HAHA. Ignore it . Ehem ehem at first, i wanna say sorry cause im not update my blog for a 5days. Sorry, sorry. Anyway, im still thinking about my final exam on November. Im not ready to face it. Im scare to face with my science and mathematic subject. I dont know what i have to do. Well,actually i understand cause im not too focus on it and that's why i cant do that. Fyi, i've do the best. But the result i got was still same. Not even change even 1%. Blahhh. Next year, ill having my "penilaian menengah rendah" (PMR) so so, i still dont know how to having it. I think, God must help me !

09 October 2009

what a weekas

oh no.im waiting for school time.school holiday was very suck now coz my week is soooo bored.everyday,ill do the stupid things.and sometime,that can be a bizarrre day. I woke up today, with my messy hair. Lastnight,i'm glad because i'm not having a nightmare and also sweet dream. By the way, i miss my friends deadly. I wanna meet them when school's already start. Even sometime, i'll gettin mad on them, but friends's still friends. I didn't hate them and i never blame them when my problem's come. Well, forgive me cause im not saying that all of you is my friendship. But that's true. Ill never pretend it. I dont mind if youll gettin angry on me or what. Just blame me. Im not a good friend. I admit it :) closed story. today i and my sister are invited go to open house. at Jln Resak or Cengal ( i dont know) . So, we have to go. But i feel so lazy, what if my sister only go? gahh . hey, like i told you before, my exam is around the corner. And now, i haven't start to study coz my mind is pregnant cause of pressure. Woah Dammit ! i think, i have to open the new mind =) i have to focus on it cause this's final exam! Not MidTerm again. Blahhh

07 October 2009

sweet dream

oh yeah.now, its already evening and i wanna share with all of you about my dream lastnight.i've been dream, both of my sister's pregnant.kah kah kah.this's funny.but seriously,i dream about this tonight.how happy me ! but all is just dream.i wish, this's gonna be reality one day.okay back to the story.in my dream, both of my sister, goin to "kedai runcit" and buy all things for baby.stroller,bottle and everythings.so cute mann.they are waiting for their deliver time.im waiting so and im really happy in my dream till i could not said anything.SERIOUSLY! when im start to happy.. my alarm's kriiinnng, krriiinnng. oh my gosh! just dream? god kidding me :'( but after i having this dream, im start to laugh to myself coz idk "kedai runcit" have things for baby? are you serious? kah kah kah kah. funny funny :D

06 October 2009


I never ask people to being my followers unless i know them. Just read and up to you guys, if you wanna be my followers or not. I don't mind at all. Thank you xxx

sadly,deadly

idk why.when im wanna blogging,of course the mood is (angry) today,its all about friends.for sure,i dont've any bestfriendsship.sorry to say.i dont have any.friend's just make me angry.idk what friends mean, but people said, friends mean's someone who can hear out story nd who can always beside us when we start to sad.for me, ALL WRONGS! sometimes friendship's road is a little bumpy.Or nauseatingly twisty.Or it's a complete and total dead end.this's true.trust me people.this's true.sorry for friends, who will sad coz i wrote about this just now.but sorry, you're just my FRIENDS,NOT FRIENDSHIP! TOTALLY NOT! :(

05 October 2009

hello whats up guys? whats your news for today? anyway,today idk what i wanna blog.hihi.lastnight,im already gettin mad on something but today, i wanna be cool.yeah cool :D you know what,i got 2weeks holiday from schoool.pmr.but im not sure im happy or not cause, if im holiday,idk what i've to do at homies.i will BORED! nd if im goin to school, sure i will BORED also.guys,you have to help me.gimme some idea.but make sure,i dont have to pay you well :) yesterday,someone already invited me go to his home, but ill never come.im the girl who's love to spending time at home.nd mommy's will never give me chance to go.mommy's will never give me permission if im goin alone.she'll give me permission, if i have someone beside me.bla bla.this's already enough when they start to controlling me like crazy.im sick nd tired being over-controlled.id rather be alone i think.hey guys.im not entirely active in myspace.im just gettin bored.i dont know, how to talk nd give the right message.people will alway misinterpet it.lately,myspace gone wrong.so i cant replying comment nd also message.im waiting for tom to fixes this up.be patient.bye guys see you later
Guys,you know what, today i had the most annoying day in my life.i dont know why this will hapen.gr anyway, im gettin mad on something.im so stupid coz im invite him to come nd see my blog.but idk why with you, up to me if i wanna blogging with english language or what.im still know how to blogging in malay language.but hey! course in university,subject in highschool's using english in the subject aite? so whats wrong with you? you me me laugh man.may be you are not fluent in english. but am i care? im not trying to act like what you said.but, this's reality man,stop talking about my blog again.cause, ill blogging with english language forever nd ever man.as long as i know how to speak nd blogging in english, but you? hm.i know, malay language is our language. but am i stupid if i speak in english.this's none of your bussines.or you just gettin angry coz im blog in english, nd you dont know,whats does it mean?i think, you can open your vocabulary or maybe ask me.im pretty sure you will never know, what i say right now rite? you're retards.as malaysian we've to know english also.coz if we go to other country/on vacation, of coz we've to using english when we speak, coz they'll never understand our language okay.stop judging me again dude.you're idiot nd you should die.open your eyes nd thinking about it please.this's my blog, and i can blog anything.we will stop the noise here and get to the real noise LIVE.YOU'RE NOSINESS!