25 June 2016

I hardly write anymore,

I love writing so much that i suddenly become bored with it 😂
My previous posts are all memorable to me. I often re-read what i've posted on this messy blog long time ago. There were many loves & breakups stories as well as articles during school time that i kind of miss right now. Those were also the time that my articles were only for the sake of improving my writing skills 😇 I didn't do it in a nice way but hey, i am now able to write in english. Gramatical errors are all fine to me. Even those who speaks english couldn't speak with a clear grammar. Okay cancel about that example. Even we malays didn't speak using a great vocabs! There were many words that doesn't even exist in Kamus Dewan Bahasa 😅 Yet we're able to continuously communicate with people.

I'm having one month semester break right now. Thanks Allah, my dearest IIC finally grant final year student like me to extend 2 weeks sem break to one month! So that the students are able to enjoy their quality time during this holy month ie Ramadhan. As usual, my sem break was boring of course. I didn't do anything. Plus now, my dearest laptop was in a clinic getting the screen repaired. My fault. Why would you let this fragile thing to fall on the floor 😅

Okie enough mumbling. This is rareeee, how did i managed to get two articles posted today. This would be the last article until when wallahualam 😂 Raya is only one week ahead so i would like to wish everyone who suddenly come across this messy blog, selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin! I don't thing i ever write any bad things that might hurt your feelings here but is there any, i would like to seek for an apology for any wrongdoings towards you intentionally or unintentionally.

Safe journey xx

Back to almost 4 years ago;

I was a really bad student. Wallahi, i don't study anything even during finals, during spm. Thanks god. I managed to passed but NOT with flying colors. To sums up everything, it was bad. I don't work hard on important subjects so i only got 'cukup mkn' x credit. How does it feel? I'm hurt, badly. Especially when my relatives were trying to insult me as if i was doin a bad sins not granting my parents wish (eventho there werent tell me what they wish for) it was my fault. Allah is fair enuff. He finally grant my parents wish now. Without His help, i wouldnt achieve what i've achieved right now. With my own efforts. Sleepless nights, sacrificing my leisure time not to go out, those are what we call as hardwork paid off! I sincerely thanks to those who have had helped me thruout my journey as a student. You might not contribute those things personally to me but your prayers is what makes me today. There's a saying that says that successful people don't boost around telling people about their successfulness so i think that's right. I should never do that. Let Allah do the rest for them. Without those hurtful comments, i wouldn't be here. I wouldn't be able to take those as my turning point to completely change myself. Thank you so much!

P/s; I used to upload my best result during my first year in college. But i did realized that, eventho the purpose was only to share a bit of my happiness to people, there were actually many people wanted to bring you down! So, i've deleted it. Let it be between me and Allah. I might have little bit of riak that time bcs that was the first time in my life but no need to do so anymore. Saying Alhamdullah after being successful was more than great 🙃


Growing up & raised by a very simple parents,


I've been taught by them not to ask for anything as a reward. To tell the truth, during my primary time whenever i got A's i did ask my father for a reward although he didn't promise me for anything 😅 After several negotiations, i got RM10 for every A's! Worth the effort miahaha 🙃

But now, as time goes by i don't do it anymore. I don't know how & why it stopped. I starting to realize that my effort are not something that i can exchange with something especially money. My efforts are my self-reward for every hardwork i've done. Wallahi, that feels nice tho. Whenever my results turn out great, i couldn't contain my happiness as i would come running to my mother telling her i got dean (my mother doesn't know what is dean anyway) i would smile until my mouth feels like it was going to ripped! Tears running down my cheek 😇

I love you, dear self. Thank you for cooperating with me well. So that i can give happiness to myself not to forget my parents. Although they may not know what is dean, i would just tell them i got all A's for all of my subjects 🤔

I was told by my parents not to ask them to buy anything above rm100. Because of that, i also did it to myself tho. Eventhough i have extra money, but to buy a handbag or shoe which above rm100 was a waste for me. Not just above RM100, even those above RM50, i take those as a pricey things. Maybe because i was taught & have that little rule ever since i was a kid.

Well, my parents is not that rich to buy me anything i want. Not even once i have any branded bags or shoes or whatsoever ever since i was a kid. Expensive things i bought cost me less than rm50. My pocket money for school is not that much unlike some ppl. Not even once i'd get to travel to other cities. EVEN langkawi. I never ride an airplane. I don't have any experiences for these travelling thingy. Never once did i blame my parents for it.

Yet, i'm happy. As it taught me to be a very very simple person as i can. Taught me how to be down-to-earth person ever. For it also taught me to study hard & change eveything as fast as possible. This is more than just a blessing that Allah gave me to taste ☺️☺️☺️