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I've managed to live through this day with the horrible feelings. Why horrible?! Hahaha woke up with a headache and a stiff aching at the area of my neck. People said, tidur salah bantal. Sounds funny isn’t it? Which pillow should I use? Yours ke? Haizz :P

So school gonna start next week. 2 more days to go. I realized that almost every holiday when the weekend is night, my mood becomes depressed, anxious, anxiety, sad whatsoever. My mind knows that I’ll not be able to rest and sleep the whole day like I did this 2weeks! Okayyy aini stop talking now! :(

Nevermind. Boring to the max! What should I do in this time? My mind was stuffed with words but I don’t know what should I write. No idea at all. Sometimes, you can never tell when you’ll be inspired to write something. I feel like wanna hold the pen all the time nowadays. From that, I can find the ideas in everywhere and could write it. The best ideas will come out of the hiding at times when you are not looking for it. Do you agree? That’s why sometimes, I tend to write the crappiest stories like I did now.

Today, I felt a bit exhausted. I was already very sleepy last night but I couldn’t sleep. Insomnia? Maybe! Haha I cried myself to sleep and screamed in the pillow. So, finally I could sleep. Dengan bangganya woke up almost 1 p.m. Wohoooo don’t blame me. I sleep at 5.am lastnight weh. Swollen eyes like a panda. After that, trying to figure out something in a seconds. Writeeee something about myself. But….. Haiyaaaa aini! Simple oso can’t do. Ishhhh -.-‘ Fucking up my mood like SERIOUSLY. I can be a short-tempered person sometime. No worries. I don’t bite people easily my prince and princess :P

P/s: Finding myself reading awhole lot more nowadays. Improving my written English but not my spoken as I still mumble. Broken English selalu. I only got B for English this term. Didn’t read that much actually. Who’s to blame? Nak buat macam mana

Nearly 3years of using bloggers. 220 post, countless words I’ve made :) Unforgettable memories. Korang je boleh read it back. I can’t! Nanti air mata meleleh tsk tskk T.T plus rasa menyampah tahap maksima!

Matahari

'Yes sunflower, warna kuning. Bila kembang sangat cantik'

'You were my sunflower'

After hearing tears letter songs and keep replaying over and over again suddenly make me wanna burst into tears right now. I don’t understand the lyrics for sure but I love the sound of this song. Touch my heart deeply and plus right now, I just read something in someone’s blog. She wrote her stories and songs by herself. All about her late father. Admire her strength and appearing strong for everyone. Of course, I don’t think I could be the same as her if I were in her place right now. Losing someone I love is my biggest fear

I miss my late grandma, grandpa and aunty. Suddenly remember that time, when the heart tearing feeling and how everyone looked. Being strong is not easy. It’s just very easy to say words. I have lost a few precious persons in my life. It’s like, everything still new. I can still hear their laughter in my ears and draw their happy face. Their memories will always be in my mind. Every seconds, every minutes, every hours, every days, every weeks, every months, and every years

' You better appreciate each and everyone beside you. You better do everything to make them happy as often as you can while you can still hear it beating. I love everyone '

P/s: It hurts the most when the tears fall.

STORY #218

Anyways, it’s been awhile since I last post. There’re hell loads of things to share. Mostly, the down parts. Haishhhh I should be relaxing now though I think

There’re always have the unexpected things behind us. But never know when or where it'll happened. Only god knows about everything. The burdens on my shoulder just disappear. I guess it did now. Thanks to god for everything. I don’t want to pressurize anyone anymore. Speaking of mistakes I’ve done plenty. I shall not tell to you guys but I’d tell them I’m too made mistakes

I never used a high toned voice to argue with someone else, I never used ‘mencarut’ words to argue with someone else (You get nothing with that). I am out of words

P/s: Kempunan sudah hilang. OMG time to cuti mata, oh my abang tukul :D *Withh loveeesss